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Disorder<\/em><\/strong> by Barbara Helvey Hughes, 4-6-2020
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\u201cIf I feel a disorder in my attachment to a person, to a job or position, to a certain dwelling place, a certain city, country and so on, I should take it to the Lord and pray insistently to be given the grace to free myself from such disorder.\u00a0 What I want, above all, is the ability to respond freely to God and all other Loves for people, places and things are held in proper perspective by the Light and Strength of God\u2019s grace.\u201d
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Attributed to St. Ignacio de Loyola, but when I called a Jesuit school thirty years ago and asked about this prayer, I was told it was not written by Ignatius. \u00a0It, rather, sounded like something one of his early followers might have written. \u00a0Nonetheless, I Love this prayer\/intention and find comfort repeating it, during life\u2019s troubled times.\u00a0 I silently recited it, today.
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I was given this prayer by my AA sponsor, when I first got sobre.\u00a0 Many years ago. \u00a0It has accompanied me through every upheaval, every loss, each joy; as I consider all my challenges, intentions, decisions; as I question; as I surrender ~ as I embrace or release; in all aspects of my personal life, since before I was married, before I had a wonderful child, before I ran businesses; it accompanied me as I travelled the world, as I made enormous discoveries ~ during times of elation.\u00a0 It attended me as I found myself in danger, when I became so ill I believed I would probably die; I embrace it as I push my boundaries, plow through fears, invite successes, learn that things are seldom what they seem and often far more profound than I ever suspected. \u00a0It helps guide me ~ my Soul, my heart, my thoughts ~ through everything and I, often, return to these few sentences.
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We all hold private tenets: we keep our deepest uncertainties and beliefs to ourselves.\u00a0 Sometimes, the world and all the daily distractions and manipulations tear at our thoughts so dearly, it seems we simply can\u2019t possibly know what to think, how to feel.\u00a0
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How DO we begin to evaluate all the information (real and false) ~ all the disorder, the disruption ~ thrown at us, all the time? \u00a0\u00a0Maybe we simply find a method, which works for our individual needs and we use it the best we know how, putting one foot in front of the other.\u00a0 Yeah, I\u2019ve done that.\u00a0 I\u2019ve been known to employ many distracting behaviours in order to NOT have to master, or even look at, some lesson I know I\u2019m meant to learn; but those lessons have a way of finding us, pestering us through lots and lots of relationships, situations and \u00a0experiences, until at long last the lightbulb blinks on and we make a leap.\u00a0 Or, it might just be we take \u2018intuitive\u2019 leaps and don\u2019t dive deep into understanding what we intend to learn.\u00a0 That\u2019s when the repetition starts, in earnest. That\u2019s when, snared inside frustration, we ask ourselves this pertinent question: Okay, when does this STOP?\u00a0 We may not acknowledge, understand or like the answer but, the lesson repeats itself, repeats itself.
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It matters not what god or God or whatever you believe in ~ or don\u2019t. \u00a0It\u2019s not a requirement to belong to this group: the species Homo Sapiens.\u00a0 And we can each invite in, or battle with, as much disorder as we choose.\u00a0
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This much I know (as Tolkien so eloquently said): \u201cThe Road goes ever on and on\u2026\u201d, we NEED tools to power or pause our way through this Gift\/Gauntlet called life. \u00a0This tool, one of my constants, happens to be a Prayer.\u00a0 And, I murmur it often. So\u2026.
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\u201cIf I feel a disorder in my attachment to a person, to a job or position, to a certain dwelling place, a certain city, country and so on, I should take it to the Lord and pray insistently to be given the grace to free myself from such disorder.\u00a0 What I want, above all, is the ability to respond freely to God and all other Loves for people, places and things are held in proper perspective by the Light and Strength of God\u2019s grace.\u201d
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